Thursday, October 29, 2009
Weird Week...
I don't normally post things like this, but it's definitely been a weird week. Ever been so sick on and off you feel kind of like you're floating outside of your body and watching yourself go through the motions of living life? We've had this weird cold I guess, that's lingered for weeks! Maybe it's the flu, I don't know. And if anyone asks if it's the "s" flu I'm going to scream. Plus it's just a busy time of year for everyone, so I've felt really out of touch with family and friends. And then on Saturday (too much info coming up, sorry!) I think I had a miscarriage. My period was late and I took a pregnancy test on Thursday with the result being negative. I thought "hooray!" because I didn't want to get pregnant until this next summer. Just not ready, ya know? But then some things happened on Saturday that makes me believe that I really was preggo but just not far along. They say many women have miscarriages and don't even know it because they aren't far along when it happens so they think their periods are just heavier for some reason. I thought I was ok about the whole thing until Sunday's primary presentation. For some reason I could not turn off the tears! I really want a 4th baby, and I'm so happy I've got the 3 I have. They are my life. But I REALLY want a 4th. So I thought, what if I can't have anymore? I'll be 33 in February. Am I getting too old? Am I done having children? I think that's what made me so sad. I'm not in the right place right now to be pregnant, but I really do want another one. So, lots to think about this week along with everyone (except Claire so far) being sick. One bright spot though, was yesterday's parent/teacher conference...we were told Emma is a "superior" student, what a wonderful thing to hear about your child! Thanks Emma for being such a great little kid. :)
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Oh, Carrie. I am sorry you had such an off week, including the whole probable miscarriage. I have had one of those too, in between Ayden and Meysa. I think ya just know sometimes that it isn't a normal period. I hope your family starts to feel better so we can party tomorrow and Saturday (are you still on to come over for dinner?). Let me know!!
Hi Miss Carrie!! Im sorry this past week has been such a tough one. Being sick and having sick kids is the worst thing.:( It will all pass and everything will work out for the better-I just know it!:) Hang in there!! You are an amazing lady!!!
Oh man- I'm soooo sorry:( That is a horrible week!!!! I will pray that you guys feel better soon, and that you can definitely have another baby when the time is right (you guys make way too cute of kids to not have anymore)!!! I will keep you in our prayers!!!
Thank-you so much friends. It helps to hear comforting words - you are indeed blessings in my life!
I'm so sorry Carrie! I think that actually happened to me last month, too. Never a positive test, but something just wasn't quite right. I've been having the same fears you are experiencing. I'm gonna be 30 this year and I'm so afraid of miscarriages. Sometimes it hard to find peace with the three we have when we really just want one more. I hope things get better. I've just been trying to remember to keep my body healthy and prepared and reminding myself that stress isn't gonna help my cause any. Things will be just fine! Love lots!!
Oh, I'm so sorry Carrie. I had quite a few of those, when we were trying so long to get pregnant before we had Taylee. Not fun. After we got pregnant with Tay, I got 2 "surprise" babies. Through out all of this, I have learned that there is a time and place for everything, and it is all in the Lord's hands. Although it doesn't make our trials any easier to bear. Hang in there. You are am anazing mother.
What a horrible week - just yucky all around! You guys are in our prayers. Yeah for Emma!
I'm sorry, that must have been quite the weekend. But don't say you're getting too old - that's rubbish. Heavenly Father knows when it's a good time for whomever he sends down and yourself - so be patient and trust in Him.
xoxo. you know i love ya~~
I can't answer any questions for you regarding "Momology" because I don't have any answers myself. But the one thing I have tried to do when it comes to kids is stay close to the lord. What would Heavenly Father want you to do? If it's have another one..then have one. If it's just TRY for another one, do that. I know the Savior loves and cares for you deeply. Ultimately, our greatest joy can only come by following the promptings we feel from above. If you follow God's will for you..in the end that's all that matters!
On a side note..though I love your relationship with your girls. I think you are a really sweet and kind mother.
When can I bring over the Diet Coke with Lime Sister??!
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